Not a genius

So, I am not the smartest kid in the class.
I was so psyched about taking all the ATC cards to Muse today that I forgot to take any pictures of them. NOT ONE. The one I tried to post yesterday ended up on Flickr which is good. The rest are now up on a wall (I think). I have that dread in my stomach knowing other people are looking at what I have made. It's not my finest time. I have a t-shirt design due for the kids school. I have several designs and think they will hate them all. I don't focus on insecurity in my life of normal activity. There usual just isn't enough time. But when it comes to something I have made (that is not clothing related etc..) like a piece of art work, I am my worst critic. I think most artists are that way. I guess if I made clothes for a living I might feel that way about my clothes and feel ok with my paintings. I don't know. I love making clothes and rarely feel self-conscious about them. There is a pattern, I follow it, done. Pretty easy. But painting and collage has no pattern. There are no rules it's just do as you feel. So everyone sees exactly what you feel. I do a lot of writing on my collages. I usually use French or Italian. I speak neither. I just love how the words look. Sometimes I forget what they even mean. They just fit with the image so well. I truely love words and images together. I guess I am not a purist.
Here is an example of another piece I made. I like her even if she is a phony.

Small, Medium or Large

This is a piece I worked on a couple weeks ago. I really like it. I think it's because it is confusing, you are not sure what you are looking at yet.

I am not a large canvas person. I am learning this as I try to work on a very large 4'X5' canvas. I have had it for over a year and still am struggling. I like to work in the medium range. Large for me is a 24" X 24". That I can do. Larger than that and I just don't know how to fill it up. I love the idea of working on a large canvas. I created a collage on a 3'X3' for a show at the Portland Art Center. That was a challenge, but I enjoyed. I liked the work and was happy I was able to do it. That is as big I have ever worked. So now along with my other collages and paintings I am working on ATC's aka Artist Trading Cards. These cards are very small, the same size as playing cards. Although I like to work small, these are very small. Another challenge for me. I have done several and am starting to feel much more comfortable. They still feel really small. It looks like I am going to donate a piece to a Doctors Without Borders auction. I am really excited about this. I don't mind donating pieces, especially for such a good cause.