Monday, December 13, 2010

25%

Hey everyone, I forgot to post this. Everything in my shop is 25% off for December. I may extend it through January actually. Anyway, just look on the front page for the coupon code.

I hope you all are enjoying the countdown until Christmas. I have a special boy who is turning 11 (o my, how time flies) on Christmas Eve. Special boy indeed.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Believe



This time of year I think is hard for everyone. It's a great time of year, but also very stressful. I know I feel it. I want to have a "perfect" Christmas and my kids to get everything they want, but that is just not going to happen. They are at an age where they are not sure they believe in Santa or not. They are questioning me about it everyday. I am trying to be truthful, but not destroy something that I believe is so magical. What does this have to do with Art and Believing? I guess it comes down to the same thing. I want to believe in my art and myself, but it's hard sometimes. I want some answers. I want someone to tell me I am on the right path. That this is the way I am supposed to be going. It's not easy to sit and try. Sometimes you just want the Universe to tell you "YES you are supposed to be an artist" and it doesn't. I have made some sales on Etsy and that makes me feel good. But ultimately it comes down to how I feel about it. And as much as I love to make art, it gets complicated. I want to make it for myself, but I also want to make it to help support my family and I am not sure if those two things always go together. I would love to think that they do, but when I think about what I want to make and what I think will sell they don't always seem the same. I will say right now that I think this line of thinking is a great disservice to the people who buy my art. I know that. So, how do I not separate the two ways of thinking? I don't know. I do know that I am trying very hard to believe in myself right now. With all the activity coming with the pending holiday getting into the studio is hard. I feel like there is not enough time to work. I have started getting ready to keep an art journal. Something that is portable that I can do whenever I get a chance. I think that will be a good start. I am hoping painting ideas will come to me that way and I can convert them to the canvas or wood or whatever I find. I am wondering if any of you artists out there are having the same dilemma? Maybe it's just that the New Year is pending and I am not sure that I have a whole lot to show for this past year. I wanted to do more and be great at it. I'm not so confident that I met those goals. Maybe next year?

P.S. Santa, please bring me Art Supplies :)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Excused Absence...

I know I haven't been posting and I feel bad about it. I do have a good excuse though. I have been sick. Really sick. The flu struck me and has persisted. It's going on week 4. I still don't feel right. I have been painting off and on, but mainly off. This makes me very cranky. I miss it like crazy, but don't have much energy. I did get a painting off for the Wild Arts Festival which is happening at Montgomery Park on the 20th & 21st. I hope I feel well enough to go. I know it's a week and a half away, but with this illness I am not counting on anything. I was in such a hurry to turn the piece in that I didn't take a picture of it. I turned it in on the day it was due which is not really like me. I like to be done with time to spare. It was one of those pieces that never looked right. It went through so many changes. I used up a lot of gesso. I finally hit it on the last try. If you get a chance to check out the show, you should. I have never been, but I can imagine the amazing art work that will be there. I am a little scared to go honestly. What if my work sucks? I know how many talented artists are in Portland. It makes me nervous to see my work next to people who have such amazing talents. This is why I didn't go last year. I was totally intimidated. This year I will try to change that. I will try to go and just enjoy the creativity. It's not my place to compare myself with other artists. It's a hard thing not to do though. I hope everyone who reads this is well and staying that way.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Hey, it's my 200th post!

Good morning! I have been up since 4am this morning and started painting around 5am. It was great. I am working on a painting for the Audubon Society. I started it and was a little stuck so I decided to redo it. I think it is going to turn out much better. I will post pictures when it is done. I am excited about it. I also almost finished another painting. It's very small (4" by 4") but it needs to dry. The oil paint I used with the encaustic is a little thin and I don't want to smear it. 

I have been sick for the last two days so getting out in the studio felt great. Getting up at 4 wasn't really part of the plan, but considering how much I slept over the last two days I think I was just not tired anymore. It feels good to have been up for about 5.5 hours now. I have so much left to do in my day. I think I will be painting a little more today.   I don't plan on waking up at 4 everyday or at least I hope not. I have to last at least until my kids go to bed tonight so that might be a little difficult. So far so good though. I don't feel one bit tired.

This is my 200th post. I know it has been a erratic, but I am working on it. I will get into a routine eventually! I hope everyone has a great day!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Artist Fear...

I know I said I would be back on here everyday writing and showing work, but it just didn't happen. I was hit by a very big block. Not just a block of not coming up with ideas, but a complete block. A block so bad I didn't want to try. It sucks. I am now working my way out of that mental space. I have set some pretty minimal (but doable) goals for myself to get myself out and painting again. Plus, someone (I won't name who) told me that I couldn't do it. I couldn't paint for a living. That's pretty much enough for me. That made me so angry that the only thing I wanted to do was paint. Not totally a mature reaction, but it worked. I got out there today and did it. I even posted to my Etsy shop for the first time in a long time. That felt really good. 

I do hope to be updating this blog more frequently and my Etsy shop too. It needs to be done and I want to do it. I am working on the Artist Way with some friends. I just started, but I can say without a doubt that it is helping me. I didn't realize how much negative thoughts were running through my brain about my art. It wasn't pretty. I am working on getting rid of those  thoughts and replacing them with something more positive. It's going to take some work I think. But I can do it. 


Here are the new pieces I worked on today. They are currently in my Etsy shop along with about 91 other pieces! Time to clean up the shop I think.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Not much...

I have nothing to really show or post today. I have had errands and appointments until just now. I will be back to work tomorrow on some more painting... Have a great Tuesday!

Monday, September 20, 2010

I love painting!

For the second day in a row I am back on this blog. Yay!

I finally did some paintings. I made out a schedule so that I could get what I needed to get done and still make painting a priority. It worked. I finished one painting, created another, posted them in my Etsy shop and am now posting on this blog. Whew. And it's not quite 1230 yet. I am so relieved. I had such a good time in the studio today. It was fun to smell the wax and look through some vintage photos and just see what I could some up with. The first painting below with the sailor and his girl is called "Hello Love" it just reminded me of people getting together after a long time being away. Of course, this isn't my family so he could be leaving. I like to think that he is back after the war. The second painting is one that I made earlier and finished today. I was listening to Michelle Shocked song "When I grow up" and this is what came up. Not sure that it actually fits what I was listening to, but it is what it is.

The last painting is something I really can't take credit for. I found the photo in an old Life magazine and cut it out and mounted it. I LOVE the photo. For some reason it just speaks to me. This one is not for sale since I can't take any credit for it's loveliness. I don't know who took the photo.

There is still so much I want to paint and I am still very unsure if I can do it. My skills feel like they are so far behind what my brain wants to do. I will keep working though. I will see you back here tomorrow. It's on my schedule!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Better Late Than Never..

So, I said I would write this on Friday, but here it is Sunday and I am finally getting to it. It's been a busy weekend. 

I know I took a break from this blog for a long time over the summer. I really didn't have much to say. So much and so little happened over the summer. My painting took a big step aside this summer which was hard. I didn't really intend to take such a big break. I still opened the studio every morning, but I never felt like I had much to say. A lot was going on in my life, but nothing that I felt I could put into my paintings. Nothing that I really wanted to capture. Lots of things I just wanted to let pass.... There were some very good bonuses to being disengaged from art for a bit too, I hung out with my kids a lot. That was good and bad. Good when I was with them and we were just doing things, but not so good when any of us got cranky and just plain sick of each other. I guess that happens when you are with each other pretty much 24/7 of the summer. 
As far as my art goes. I don't really  have anything to post today. I thought that the minute the kids went back to school I would be jumping to be in my studio and paint. No interruptions, no little person trying to paint by my side.  But things just never seem to stop. I had to start over and make my painting time a priority for myself. I started painting. I have a couple that are done that I posted in my Etsy shop a while ago. I am working on two more right now. I am hesitant when it comes to painting right now. I am finding my voice again and it's just a whisper at the moment. I have so many things I want to get down, but feel like I am lacking the skills to do it momentarily. It's almost as if I have forgotten. I know it will come back to me. I just have to be patient and keep working. Again, there are all these experiences and emotions etc.. that I have to deal with and painting has always been the best way for me to do it. I just have to take the reigns off and let it out. So, what comes out from me in the future might look a little different than the past.. I don't really know. 

I will keep you posted. This blog will keep me back on track. I plan on updating it at least a couple times a week.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Rest...

I have been absent (again!) I'm not sure exactly why, but I think it has to do with it being summer. Not just that my kids are home, that does cut into my studio time a lot. It's more than that. I feel like I need some time to regroup and and that maybe something new is headed my way. Some new creative step that I am on the brink of. I put in two hours in the studio today and it was a good two hours. I am working on a couple things that I really like. It's just that nothing is done yet. I am slowing way down and taking on longer pieces. It feels good and a little strange. I am used to coming up with an idea and boom, it's done. Part of it is that I am working a little bigger. This is new for me. And a little intimidating. I have been going back and forth between encaustics and acrylics. I have two pieces going on at one time and taking my time on both. It's good actually to take my time. To really think through what I want a piece to be about and try and execute it on a somewhat larger scale. 

There are other changes too. I have recently read Eating Animals by Johnathan Safran Foer.  It is a very well written book. Very disturbing and made me really think about the choices I am making. After a long (10 year) hiatus I have gone back to being a vegetarian. No meat of any kind. It's a good decision for me. I feel better about it. This has been sitting in my brain for a while now and this book just pushed that to the forefront for me. Before I had my son I had every intention of raising him as a vegetarian and then when I was about half-way through my pregnancy I started eating meat. So, that was thrown out the window. Although this may not seem to be related to my art. I really believe it is. As I said, it's made me think a little more about what I am doing. On all levels. 

The other factor is that I need art in my life. When I am not working on something I am reading about it. It's a constant in my life. But I also am enjoying spending the time with my kids who are getting older and wanting more separation, but at the same time are still needing there mommy. I like that, but I know it is fleeting. I feel like this summer is the summer of transition and I need to respect that and go along with it. Not try to push those feelings aside. 

I am still working and still coming up with ideas. I believe there is more change coming for me and I am so curious to see where my art goes. Hopefully you will stick it out with me.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Still here...

I'm still here! Just took a little vacation and came back home to the mess I didn't want to clean up when it was so hot out. That's kept me busy. I am finally out in the studio, but nothing new to show yet. Tomorrow.....

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Hot, Hot, Hot

It's a hot one today. I didn't get much done in the studio because it's just too warm. And I still haven't figured out how to get up earlier. When it's this hot I just want to sleep in. But I am not going to complain too much. I am happy summer is here. Tomorrow is my birthday and from the time I can remember it has always been hot on my birthday. Tomorrow will be no exception!

I created a couple of pieces that I am going to list in my Etsy shop today. I feel like I haven't worked enough lately. I need to be out in the studio everyday, but sometimes nothing comes out of the time in there. I am sure it will pass. I just like to be creating. It makes me feel good to make something.  

I had a really great fourth of July spending time with friends. I have some very, very talented and creative friends and it's so nice to talk to them. It doesn't happen often enough. Everyone is so busy that it's really hard to just sit down and have a conversation. This time we were able to. Check out there work, there is John Larsen, John Tankersley, and Vicki Lynn Wilson. All amazing artists. Then there were other friends there that don't call themselves artists but are also really creative. It was a great atmosphere and a great time. 


I hope all you PDXers stay cool today. Don't forget to drink water!

Friday, July 2, 2010

I don't mind the rain...again.

Today it rained. It has stopped now which is fine. I actually didn't mind the rain today. Especially since I saw the weather here in Portland is supposed to be in the 90's by next week. Whew, that's going to be hot. 

For some reason the rain today made it feel so good to be out in the studio. I was able to work on a few things and just enjoy being out there. It helps that I have a computer out there that allows me to keep up with friends. It's a good way to take a breather. The kids even stayed out for a little while. 

Anyway, below are the new pieces I listed on Etsy today. I have 89 items on there! I think a sale will be coming up very soon. I will keep you posted. I hope everyone enjoys this holiday weekend. I know I will be.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Tired...

I am so tired today. It's such a bummer to be tired on such a beautiful day. So, I am ignoring the major part of me that wants to take a nap and pushing through. So there sleepiness, take that!

I have some new work to show. I will post it in my Etsy shop later today. I have opened up the studio, but have not a chance to work at all today. I don't think my chance will come until later tonight. I have too much stuff to do today to take any time (including napping). 

I have been experimenting with textures in my work. Trying out different fencing materials and even a weaving tool. It's fun to see what comes out of it. Stencils are another thing I have been trying. It's fun to experiment a little and see what else I can do. 

I found this book at the library yesterday called Acrylic Revolution. I never have taken an art class so this is really neat. It talks a lot about acrylic colors and techniques and many, many things I didn't know. Some things I did know just from my own experimentation, but most are new. I feel like I am going to learn a lot and feel more confident in my acrylic paintings. 

I am currently working on an assemblage that has gone through MANY, MANY incarnations now. I think I finally have something right. I have tried many different color combination's and none of them worked. I had already laid down the main pieces so I had to work around them. Not the smartest choice. I was just so confident that my first color choices would be the right ones. I have learned my lesson. I am HOPING that tomorrow I will have some pictures of this piece to show you. I have been working on it for a couple weeks now and I am ready to let it be finished. We shall see.

Enjoy your day!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Blahs...

I have been feeling kind of blah lately. Not really unhappy/sad, not really excited or happy. Just kind of there. It was showing in my art. Nothing really was doing it for me. BUT tonight I went back out into the studio and reworked a couple of things and it seems to be getting a little better. My plans for getting up early have been thwarted by this stupid illness thing going on. So, while the kids were busy I took my chance and went out. I am soo glad I did. I didn't work long, but I did feel very productive and I think sometimes that is all that matters. I had been having a little bit of "blank canvas" syndrome. I hate that. But I broke through it. Hooray!

I don't have much to say tonight. I will have more to say and show tomorrow. 

Good night!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Back slowly...

I'm mostly back to normal. I have a few days of resting to do, but I am up and about. 
I made it out to the studio for a bit today. I just couldn't sit inside when it so lovely outside. I am loving this weather. It feels like summer has arrived! 

I have a few pieces that I just listed in my Etsy shop. And another piece I am working on that won't be finished for a bit. It's taking it's sweet time coming together. I figure I won't try to rush it and just let it come to me as it will. 

Nothing else much to report. I am getting accustomed to waking up earlier than my kids so I can get in the studio before they come out to "chat". So far so good. 

Hope everyone is having a great day.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Out Sick..

Enjoy the Beautiful Weather Portlanders.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Before I take the garbage out...

So, yes I am about to take the garbage out, but first wanted to write on here that all of the pieces I posted yesterday have been listed in my Etsy shop. Considering how gorgeous it is outside I am not sure why I am on the computer! 

I finally made it out to the studio before my kids could come out. I have a few pieces in progress that I am really excited about. I decided that I would conserve my energy a little and not try to get them done all at one time. I think that is how I get so frustrated. I get on a roll and then get interrupted a hundred times for different things. This morning was much more peaceful. It's hard right now though because the studio is calling to me. But I know there is no way I would get any work done with the kids being outside. And as I stated above, I have to take the garbage out. 

Pictures coming tomorrow! Yay. 

Monday, June 21, 2010

Distractions...

Let me start this by saying that I adore my kids. Love them like nothing else. BUT they are talkers. Big talkers. They like to inform me of EVERYTHING. Which sometimes I appreciate, but other times like when I am trying to work on a painting can drive me a little on the nutso side. I am sensing that I am going to have to forgo the "sleeping in" part of summer and start getting up before the kids do so I can have some quiet time in the studio. I guess I don't do to well with someone talking in my ear (Literally) while I am trying to work. 

It was another day of challenges in the studio today. Some of the things that came out of it I like some I have to get used to. Not sure how I feel about them yet. I have been unusually drawn to the color purple today. Not usually one I use a lot, but it sounded good to me today. So, that color was used a lot. Other than that I kind of stuck to some of my old ways. Still fill like I am flying blind in there. Things just are not coming so easy. I had one idea that I really liked, but it just turned out kind of bad. So, I started over. I think something better actually became of the piece though. 


I think I will list a couple of these pieces in my Etsy shop tomorrow.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Bad Art...

I have been making some bad art lately. It's just not turning out. I don't know if it's just because my schedule is so different or I have just ran out of ideas for a while, but some of it is really Bad. Some of my color combination's that I thought might work out have been a mess. Muddy and ugly. I have tried a couple different texture options. Some of them have been cool, but I haven't figured out how to incorporate them into a painting. I feel like I am just beginning again. I still have my old art from when I very first started working on canvases and making collages. They are actually really funny. It's like I was just trying to put as much stuff on the canvas as possible. There was zero thought on composition. Plus the colors were really weird. I feel like I have learned a whole lot since then. Today I feel like I am almost back to that spot. Trying to put too much together. And making weird colors. I guess I need to find some nice images to look at for a bit and get myself inspired again. I have learned that no matter if it's bad art or "good" art you still have to keep making it. No matter what I will always go out to my studio and work on something. I may not like what I have made, but it has to come out somehow. Being "inspired" really doesn't play into it I guess. (sorry for the run on paragraph)

I do kind of like the piece above. It was one of the pieces that I sat on for awhile. I am going to list it in my Etsy shop today.

One more VERY important thing: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW JESSICA!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Some new slightly different things...

These are some pieces that I did yesterday. They aren't necessarily my style, but sometimes I just have to get something down. Especially when I am not completely inspired. I usually just work through it until something happens. I have a couple pieces that I started today that are promising, I just don't know where they are going yet. I can be patient though. Sometimes things just have to come to you in their own sweet time. These pieces were done really simply. Like I said, I just needed to get something down.

Now that the kids are home from school (even though we are only on our second day) I am figuring out that I need to be able to concentrate a little better. I have been spoiled having free mornings and afternoons to myself to create whatever I want. That isn't the case now. There is always some need that needs to be met. My husband kept the kids inside for an hour this morning so I could have some uninterrupted time in the studio. I can't tell you how much that helped. Even though I didn't complete the pieces they are started and that is something.

I don't know if any of these pieces will be posted on Etsy. I haven't decided yet. They are different than what I usually make. I guess I will decide later.

Now if we could only improve the weather. That would make a major difference to my mood (and my poor lawn).

IT WORKS!

Yay, Blogger finally is letting me put images up! The one with the girl is called "Wings" and she is listed in my Etsy shop. The other two are gifts my kids made for their teachers. Very sweet I thought.
I will have more to post later. Yay!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

still doesn't work....

Anybody know about Blogger? I still can't download images and their "help" is non-existent. Really very frustrated.

I have some new work to show. Hopefully this will get fixed!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

UGH!

Still can't download pictures. Have sent an email to the help forum. Hopefully someone knows what is going on. Hopefully have some pics tomorrow. If anyone knows what is going on, let me know.

Monday, June 14, 2010

dark and light...

I had some dark painting moments this weekend. Nothing that I will post here, but you can take my word for it. I had some stuff to get out and painting usually helps with that. It's a lot better than holding it inside or taking out on my family. So, I lock myself in my studio and paint. When it's all done, I feel better. Then I usually have to move on to something less serious. That's where the two pieces above come in. They are much lighter than my other work. I had fun making them which was good. And I like them so that's a bonus. One piece (I won't say which because she reads my blog) is for a friend of mines birthday. The other I just like.

And since I am a proud parent I have to share the pieces below. My son did the blue one. He wrote the poem himself and I helped him with the canvas. He is very good at writing poems. Something I hope he will continue to do even when he doesn't have to. My daughter and I put the other piece together. We found the poem on-line. I thought it was very sweet. She helped put the SWAN on top (her teachers name).

****PICTURES have to come tomorrow, something is up with blogger :(

Friday, June 11, 2010

Clean!


It took many hours to get it done but my studio is finally done. I had to get rid of a lot of things. I decided that if I was really going to clean it I just wanted things that I actually used and liked in there. Some things I was just holding onto because I thought they were neat, but they ended up just getting shoved out of the way. So, it is pared down and CLEAN. Unfortunately it's still a bit dusty because of those big doors leading to the outside, but not much can be done about that. We found no evidence at all of any critters making there home in my space so I am really happy about that. Here are some peeks of what my studio looks like now.


Book shelves



I have to admit that I just like sitting out there and admiring it. I suppose I should get back to work though. I just don't want to mess it up!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Trashed...






I am writing this early because I have a lot of work to do. My studio is trashed. Last night as I was closing up this very tiny, TINY little mouse ran into my studio. I don't know why it was out in the light, but it was. I of course freaked out a little and ran and got my husband. Who got a very large stick. My studio is not that big and is packed. He had to use the stick to corner the poor little mouse and whisk him out of the studio. In the process he had to move a lot of stuff and basically tore the place up. I figure it's a good excuse to do a little deep cleaning and get ready for my next set of paintings. I would post pictures of the studio, but it's pretty bad. Maybe after I am done.

The above pieces have all been listed in my Etsy shop. Lots of pieces in there right now.

UPDATE: No mouse poo anywhere. Yay.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Still working...

I don't have any photos ready for this post. I have some new work that I will be listing in my Etsy shop probably later this afternoon. I hit a bit of a lull, but I think I am past it. I have been working on more than one piece at a time which is a little unusual for me, but it seems to be working. Now that I have some momentum I don't really want to quit. I might update this post later with some pictures if I have a moment. I hope all the Portlanders out there are enjoying this weather. I for one am enjoying the heck out of it!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

This has nothing to do with Art, but its important

This little boy has been missing since yesterday morning. He's only 7. If you are in Oregon, keep your eyes open.
Here's the link with a picture of him:http://www.oregonlive.com/portland/index.ssf/2010/06/search_for_missing_portland_bo.html

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Working (even in the dreary)




This weather in Portland is getting me down. I have talked to a lot of people who feel the same way. When is the rain going to stop. It's so gray out. It's June Ms. nature, cut us a break!

Ok, anyway, I have been working in the studio and just put the above three pieces up for sale in my Etsy shop. That makes me feel like I have accomplished something at least instead of crawling up with a book and waiting for the rain to stop.

I cleaned up my studio this weekend which was good. I should say that really I cleaned up the floor and all the books. I have a vast collection of vintage books that I like to look at and use. I had forgotten all the cool books I have. It was good to sort through them all and see what they were. I am always surprised that people get rid of vintage books. Especially my favorites like the old physics books or astronomy books. They have some of the best images. My all time favorites are anatomy books. The older they are the better the illustrations. I have a pretty big collection of those. Whenever I am at a garage or estate sale I always go for the books. Great treasures are found there.

This weekend is my 12 year anniversary with my husband. Wowza, things move fast. It looks like we might actually be able to get away with out kids in tow. It happens rarely so it's a pretty big treat for us. I feel lucky to have a good friend who will be taking care of them with her kids.

I hope this week is treating you well. I can't believe it is already Wednesday. Yay for short weeks!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Short Post


This is a short post today. Mainly because I only spent a couple hours out in the studio. I did get the above piece done today and posted on Etsy though so it was fruitful. I need to get out and around people today! It can get a little unnerving when you are working by yourself so much I think. I rely on email a lot to talk to friends, but sometimes that just isn't enough. I need to be out and about in the world. So today I am going to run some errands and maybe take myself to coffee. I hope you are having a good day.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Work or Play?





Today I would say that I played in the studio. It's been a little bit of a hectic week so far, and it's only Wednesday. I spent a few hours working in the studio and came up with some pieces that I like. Sometimes I have to force myself to go out there, but almost 100% of the time I am happy I did. Today I couldn't get out there fast enough. It was a fun time. I am hoping tomorrow will be more of the same. I just listed these pieces in my Etsy shop. It seemed to be faster this time. Maybe I am more awake today. Don't know. At least it didn't take me as long as the other day.

The weather is still really dreary right now which stinks. I am looking forward to the sun coming back. It's hard to believe that School is almost out with this kind of weather. How the kids being home every day is going to effect how I get things done I am not sure. I am thinking that since they are a little bit older they can amuse themselves more. At least we can all be outside!